Thank God For Coffee and Friends

Getting drunk on coffee with friends

I’ve been spending a lot of time with some close friends, something I’ve neglected to do in the past years of my existence. There was always something keeping me busy, be it work or a relationship, that it was only now that I’ve truly appreciated spending more time with my girls. And it’s been helping me cope. I’d like to think that convincing myself to be happy whenever I’m with them is therapeutic. It’s hard to be a gloom cloud whenever you’re with friends, lest you risk the chance of being so depressing that they might not want to spend time with you anymore. However, sometimes I still zone out. I still hope I have more time alone to mope and pity myself, which isn’t going to do me any real good.

Coffee and donuts from J.CO

Moving on and being alone is so difficult. I was told that I’m a late bloomer because I never got to appreciate time alone earlier in life. I got into a romantic relationship too early, which deprived me of the time to learn to be independent and self-reliant. It’s taking a toll on me now, because I’ve always had someone with me, I always belonged to someone. But now that I’m alone, everything feels so different.

I’m taking this time to be better. Hopefully to find out more about myself and figure out the things I want and don’t want from life and my future relationships. 2013 was a year of learning and discovery. 2014 is they year I put those learnings to good use. There’s no more time to spare to be crying over spilled milk and thinking of what-ifs and what-could-have-beens. If anything, they’re destructive and are not helping me move forward. There’s a beautiful life and future ahead of me and I know that I’ll be okay. And when the time is right and the right person comes along, I’ll be more than ready.

Mantra: Choosing to be happy :)

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